Post by Eis on Sept 7, 2021 17:20:27 GMT -8
It's easy for her to write off what he has to say as lip service. Easier, at least, than actually trying it. It's what her feelings want her to do. She could simply bid him goodnight and storm off to her room, muttering about how all he had to offer was sentimental nonsense. In that particular scenario, she could salvage what little dignity she feels she has left and do what comes natural to her; pushing others away.
But is that what she really wants?
Her head lists slightly to one side, expression mostly numb, as Lucas makes analogy and explains the more 'technical' side of what he proposes. Not that it's all going over her head. Of course not. But she feels absolutely drained.
"I'm sorry... I haven't let out that much emotion in such a long time. It's taken its toll on me. I don't want you to think I'm not hearing what you're saying." She gives her best effort at a sheepish smile - lessened even more so than that which her haunted visage does for her... 'niceties'. "I'm going to do this, I think. Anything is better than feeling sorry for myself and doing nothing about it." She's a Fairest, for fuck's sake. It's beneath her.
"It will take me some time, but I think I can do it-- her... justice. And thank you." Her gaze levels with his eyes. Even if summoning a happy smile is next to impossible right now, her gratitude - and resolve - is unmistakable. "For being honest with me. You didn't just tell me what I wanted to hear, no matter how much I would have loved it. When I get over myself and these unfortunate feelings, I'll remember what you've done for me. You're a... good man. Lucas."
But is that what she really wants?
Her head lists slightly to one side, expression mostly numb, as Lucas makes analogy and explains the more 'technical' side of what he proposes. Not that it's all going over her head. Of course not. But she feels absolutely drained.
"I'm sorry... I haven't let out that much emotion in such a long time. It's taken its toll on me. I don't want you to think I'm not hearing what you're saying." She gives her best effort at a sheepish smile - lessened even more so than that which her haunted visage does for her... 'niceties'. "I'm going to do this, I think. Anything is better than feeling sorry for myself and doing nothing about it." She's a Fairest, for fuck's sake. It's beneath her.
"It will take me some time, but I think I can do it-- her... justice. And thank you." Her gaze levels with his eyes. Even if summoning a happy smile is next to impossible right now, her gratitude - and resolve - is unmistakable. "For being honest with me. You didn't just tell me what I wanted to hear, no matter how much I would have loved it. When I get over myself and these unfortunate feelings, I'll remember what you've done for me. You're a... good man. Lucas."