Firebringer
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Elemental Ifrit, Presence 3 (Intimidating)
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Post by Firebringer on Mar 1, 2021 18:35:00 GMT -8
Black eyes, black hair? Rowan? What? Fuck no.
Danica grows very silent for a moment while she tries to process, tears streaking down her eyes. It was just a stupid contract. Just a... but they went through her mind for something they could have just asked for. The mind is so private. It... And now they think she wants Rowan? Rowan?
Did she want Rowan. She tried to search for it. Any romantic attraction? Hell, any sexual attraction? ...no. I'd let him use me for a practice first kiss if he needed it, but that's about it. Cause it wasn't like she hadn't done those things before. But yeah. No. Noooo.
"You went into my head and you saw Rowan? I-I don't understand." She tries to just wrap her mind around it, "I don't want him. I've never wanted him. He's like my kid brother who needs to be beaten around the block a couple of times, but by me. No one else gets to punch my kid brother unless they're supposed to be." It was almost gross in her mouth. The idea of... not that he was completely unattractive. I mean. Fuck. Thomas was constantly cold and dripping. It's not like I didn'...
And then she starts laughing. Crying and laughing and shaking her head, "Riley. Why couldn't you just...? I'm... I'm so mad right now. I... but..."
Thomas. Thomas has black hair and black eyes. But I don't... do I still want him that badly? I thought I'd...
She groans and looks up at the ceiling, "Thomas. You saw Thomas. And I don't want Thomas anymore. I can't have Thomas anymore. Riley, I wanted you." Can I still want you? I do. I do. I'm scared. You... what if you changed what I wanted? What if you? It hurt. It hurt so much. "Sounds like the Wyrd decided you were doing something you really shouldn't have been doing. And I kind of don't blame it. God... I just can't..."
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Riley Sorsa
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Post by Riley Sorsa on Mar 1, 2021 19:13:14 GMT -8
Thomas?
I Don't know this place. This path wasn't here before. I know the garden. Every flower. Every row. I don't know this place. How do I not know this place. Not knowing is death.
Riley stared blankly at Fire or more through her, tears rolled down their blotched cheeks. " I'm sorry. I'm sorry" They whisper. " I know better, I can be better. Please don't stop the music"
The Moth's words almost seemed relevant to what had just been said, but they were haunted by somewhere else. A past pain crawled its way through their voice and bled as tears from their eyes. They took in a sharp gasp as they sat down against the wall looking over to Fire. Grounding themself. They were here, with Fire. This was their mistake. Their voice quivered and jumped for air as soft sobs were produced from crying.
"You deserve to be angry, mad. I fucked up. Your right... it knew. It knew I was in the wrong." They wanted to look at her, but she was too bright. Be angry at me " After what you said that night...it was about Thomas. You were vulnerable. I couldn't get that out of my head on the balcony." They gasped for air as a sob caught in their chest. " No...that's an excuse" They didn't have the words to say sorry. How could they? Sorry, I thought I deserved your secrets? That I wanted the security of it? Not good enough.
The Moth let out a sob. They fixated on the words ' Riley, I wanted you'. Wanted. She deserves the truth. What would you sacrifice to the fire.
"That's not all of it. " The snorted and ran their arm across their nose. "I Lied to you. I lied when I said no strings."
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Firebringer
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Elemental Ifrit, Presence 3 (Intimidating)
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Post by Firebringer on Mar 2, 2021 20:05:41 GMT -8
There was something about the way Riley was speaking that rung an odd bell for Danica. That pleading.
I know better. I'll be better.
She knew those words. Where did she know those words?
Please. Please. Please don't hurt me. Please. I'll do better. I promise. I'll play better. Frosty... That's their Durance speaking. And suddenly, she felt bad. She felt worried. Their world was being toppled by- well, their actions. But she'd never wish that on anyone.
It took her out of her anger, which inwardly pissed her off, because she should be more angry. She should get to have that moment. But...
Then they kept going and her heart hurt. Her head hurt. Everything hurt. It felt like reality was being spun upside down again. Watching Riley break down felt like she was breaking down and tears start streaming down her face again. It is involuntary. She can't help it. She takes the few steps over and pulls them into a tight hug. A messy, teary hug and she doesn't care.
"Please, Riley. Please. It's okay. It's okay." It wasn't, but it was at the same time. I lied when I said No Strings. That just keeps echoing in her head over and over again and it is like a dam just bursts open as she begins just sobbing. Sobbing with happiness. Sobbing with anger. Sobbing with relief and anxiety and everything that shouldn't go together all at once. And she just hugs them tighter.
"I've been driving myself insane." "I kept telling myself over and over I wasn't allowed to want you after that. That-that it was nothing and. And you didn't find me after, s-so." She keeps sobbing and now that she's started, she can't stop. It's too much. It's too much. "I've wanted you so much it hurts. I felt selfish and-and like I should have been content with friendship because-because you didn't want me. And-and... And I've been terrified I'm going to-" her words just become completely unintelligible as she breaks down herself.
And it feels ridiculous, because how could this possibly hurt this much? It just does. And how could her feelings have spiraled into this? They just did.
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Riley Sorsa
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Post by Riley Sorsa on Mar 3, 2021 19:54:59 GMT -8
"It's not okay. What I did wasn't okay" The Moth went ridged as the elemental's arms wrapped around them. Why would she hug them? She should be mad. Riley wanted to pound their fist against The Elemental. Demand that they be angry. The moth had done something awful, they had hurt her, betrayed trust, and been wrong. They needed to be punished, taught never to make those failures again.
"Be angry, please" they whispered into Dani's ear weakly, their words melting away into the sobs. The bewitched's form loosened and sank into the hug.
The heat of Dani's embrace enveloped the moth in slow comforting waves. Their mind began to numb to the pain and splintered memories brought on by the darkling's curse. Where part of them wanted the punishment for the transgression, another longed-for reward and admiration. They wanted Dani's touch, to be told it was okay, to be wanted. Did they deserve that didn't they? They had confessed, was that not enough? Dani's words only fed the Moth's desires. Their mind melted to that night on the dance floor that had haunted their choices. Each word pushed away from the thoughts fears and punishment. The darkling Wanting nothing more to be lost in the here and now. Those problems could wait, Riley wanted just this, now. They sobbed, heaving from breath as they pulled Dani closer. Their hug tightened as if letting go now would mean they would lose the Ifrit, that the light would melt away and they would be left with only their failures. Why was this familiar. Why was this desire so strong.
Breath. "I'm here. I'm here" the darkling whispered partly to comfort Firebringer, partly to ground themself. Riley tried to catch their breath and not to think of how they must look. Their makeup streaked, their eyes bleary, and their face red.
"lo-look at us" The twilight dancer's voice caught as they tried to calm their tears. Their hand moved up caressing the side of Dani's face and her hair.
"We're a mess," they admitted with a vulnerable laugh.
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Firebringer
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Elemental Ifrit, Presence 3 (Intimidating)
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Post by Firebringer on Mar 5, 2021 21:59:41 GMT -8
Danica was a sobbing mess, but everything about touching Riley was a comfort she needed desperately. The cool and softness of their body against hers was relief, like finally finding the place you are supposed to be. But she was also pissed. So pissed. And so not at the same time. It was dizzying.
How could they do this to me? How could they let me feel like this? Why don't I feel more angry? Why do I just want to sob with them instead? Why do I feel like the breath was gone from my body until they hugged me back?
Her mind was a jumbled mess and all she wanted was relief. All she wanted was to lose herself here because it was better than the silence. It was better processing it together than alone, even when they are the one that hurt her. And it was better than being without them. It's as if her feelings for Riley are stronger than the hurt and that's mildly terrifying.
Then Riley spoke and their voice was like music, even in stutters. Their hand moving to caress her face, touch her hair felt like it was sapping it all away, but she didn't feel glamour. She thought only glamour could do that. Only glamour was supposed to make touch feel this warm, this comforting, this inviting.
After a moment, she tilts her head up to look at Riley and her glowing orange eyes couldn't look brighter. She hadn't been wearing more than eyeliner and even that had run a little along the sides of her eyes. Her cheeks are red, the now more visible rosacea of her cheeks more visible. She's huffing, trying to find breath and calm herself down.
And then she laughs. A sobbing laugh and she stutters, "Y-yeah. Yeah we are."
She couldn't help it. The more she stared up at them, the more the aching in her chest seemed to thrum. Is it their mantle or are there really butterflies making her heart flutter? And it is stupid. Her mind is dancing around every kind of problem, but the most important one that decides to make its way out...
"But... do you want to be a mess t-together?" She tries to hold back her tears and relax her body, but it was like every other problem in her life decided it needed to pour out now. The sorrow about frustration about her sister. The hurt about dealing with things for Rowan. The confusion of all of this. Archie's meddling bullshittery. All of it. But she needs to hold it together. Maybe hope is her virtue more than justice.
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Riley Sorsa
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Post by Riley Sorsa on Mar 6, 2021 8:48:49 GMT -8
Riley smiled at the elementals' laughter, letting out a small wet snort in time with Dani’s stutter. They would be embarrassed if it wasn't such a raw moment. They gently raised their hand, and whipped the flat of their thumb, across the top of one of Fire’s cheeks, whipping away a tear.
“You got a little water on you” The bewitched smile cracked into that coy smirk, bemused by their own little joke.
The warmth from her cheek gave the moths hand a small quiver. Their bright orange eyes captured the moth's focus. They let the flames request dance in their mind. There was a familiarity in all of this. It felt as if there was thread laced through their ribcage, being tugged gently towards the Fire. The need for her attention, her touch, her kiss, was intoxicating. Was it desire, a compulsion, their nature? Did it matter, not to Riley, not now.
“Together? I’d...I’d like that. I want that” Riley voice was soft, almost musical in its tone.
The world was full of weeping, the past drowned in it. Only sizing the moment, living now could they break free from the pain of the past. Passion, life, they were the best weapons. Riley didn't want to cry any more, didn't want the burden of shame, the ache of sorrow, the wound of guilt. The darkling had felt them enough. They wanted this, the intimacy, the desire, her touch.
Let the pain be for another day, because right now was for the two of them.
“Dani” Riley's soft voice carried barely past their lips. Their hand moved from the Ifrits cheek and slid to the where the neck met the back of her head. Their nails gently caressed her skin as if seeking certainty that this was real.
“Please kiss me, Dani”
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Firebringer
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Elemental Ifrit, Presence 3 (Intimidating)
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Post by Firebringer on Mar 7, 2021 1:39:17 GMT -8
Riley's touch to her face, wiping away one of her tears, that smile all just makes her melt into them more. I want that. They want me. Riley wants me. And suddenly she felt overwhelmed. Her heart was beating so quickly.
She told herself she wasn't going to fall for anyone after Thomas. It was over. Reality had been split. She didn't want to think about it again, think about real romance, real crushes. Now she is here, exactly where she told herself she wasn't going to be. Exactly where she told herself not to be. But she wants this so badly. ...this? But what 'this'?
Will this be a relationship? Are we just caught up in the moment? Both? Her head was spinning with the idea of that reality. The idea of existing in their world, being an important person in their life. Dates out and nights in, arguments over stupid things, laughter, kisses...
And then Riley whispered her name, her given name, and tension, desperate fiery desire grew in her. Their nails caress the back of her neck and made her breath slow, the moment growing more hazy. This was like a drug.
Please kiss me, Dani.
Her breath catches, "Riley," she barely breathes before she moves her hands, one moving just slightly up their back and the other, moving to cup their cheek, and she leans up, catching Riley's lips in a deep kiss. And the moment their lips meet, it is as if a release has been opened, an immediate tremble overcoming her body for a brief moment as a fresh tear streaks down her face. Her cheeks are flushed with a pink glow, her heart beating wildly in her chest, and everything about her is brighter, more alive.
And she kisses them as if she needs them to breathe, as if the moment they stop they might vanish and she'll never get to feel this again.
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Post by Riley Sorsa on Mar 7, 2021 21:18:53 GMT -8
There was solace, at that moment. Like pressure released, the pain, anger, fear. All of it dissipated, replaced by a familiar yet alien euphoria. Rest your weary wings. Then the sensation followed pulling Riley right into the heat of the moment. The familiar touch of elementals lip on their own, sent their head spinning. One hand caressed where the neck met the head, the other pulled Dani by the waist. The twilight dancer held their bodies close, almost as if trying to anchor Firebringer from floating away. Riley let out a heated gasp as they broke from the kiss. Their breathing heavy, ragged from tears, quickened from the thrill. Their dark eyes locked on to Firebringers orange eyes. "Dani-" The moth cut themself off, planting another kiss onto the Ifrits lips. They were in a fog of desire, that seemed only to grow thicker by their moment. Riley's mind blearily wondered for a moment , their eyes spotting the couch. They craved to pull Fire closer, to the couch. Then they remembered. "Oh, shit" they muttered breaking this kiss holding up a finger. "One second. Where is my phone. Shit" Riley Got up and moved to the counter, they tugged at their focus. Finding the phone they picked up and hastily sent a text. Nearly throwing the phone back to the counter, with enough force almost to send it off the opposite edge. They could buy a new one. "Okay, where were we?" Riley said with a stupid grin on their face.
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Firebringer
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Post by Firebringer on Mar 8, 2021 19:04:32 GMT -8
That kiss was everything. The kind of everything where you can't imagine there is a world beyond that feeling. Nothing else exists, nothing else matters, and you don't want it to either. She held onto Riley for dear life, her hand moving from their cheek into their hair, her body completely melted into theirs.
And it was like a moment of losing breath when Riley pulled away for the briefest second to catch breath and say her name.
Name? She didn't need one of those. And breathing? Breathing was for people whose bodies weren't currently on fire.
Then their lips were back on hers again and it was like an accelerant had been added. Her kisses were more like a desperate plead and perhaps she was getting a little light headed...
The moth pulled back suddenly with a curse and she realized just how out of breath she actually was. While they did something with their phone, send a text?, Danica put her hands on her knees for a moment, hunched over as she took deep breaths before wiping off those final tears from her face. If we keep kissing like that, I'm going to forget my own name. Actually, I think I'm fine with that... And then she watched Riley toss their phone across the counter, the crash of it falling off the counter made her let out a snort.
Biting her bottom lip with a grin, she moved to sit on her couch, holding out her hand for Riley to join her.
"I think you were in the midst of showing me how much you want me."
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