Firebringer
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Elemental Ifrit, Presence 3 (Intimidating)
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Post by Firebringer on Apr 15, 2021 18:12:18 GMT -8
Dani shakes her head, already in that defensive, passive mode of 'everything is fine'. This is a reality she is coming to live with. It is a reality far better than living without her sister. Still, it just hurt and the moment she can fear wetness at her eyes, she feels betrayed by her body. No. It's fine. I'm fine. I can deal with it. It's better this way anyway. All of things were lies she'd tell herself to make it hurt less, to make it feel like it was inevitable.
"It... it just is what it is. I, uh... There wasn't-" she pauses and bites her lip, trying to steady herself as she grips a little harder onto the glass, "I just disappeared. She thought I abandoned her and so when I came back, she told me to fuck off. Rightfully so. At least, from her perspective." she blinks away a tear, a sizzle can be heard as it evaporates upon her cheek.
"I'd fix it if I could, but it'll just take time. Maybe. I, uh... I don't know. As long as she's happy, then I guess that is really what matters." She tenses up, realizing she's grasping the glass so hard she might shatter it, so she slowly loosens her grip. Relax. Yes. Relax.
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Riley Sorsa
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Post by Riley Sorsa on Apr 16, 2021 6:27:58 GMT -8
The wisp reached out, gently cupping the back of Dani's hand with one hand and taking the glass of water with the other. Riley sets it gently down on one of the Arcade cabinets.
"That's so fucked, I'm sorry. I know she means so much to you. Hell, you moved here for her, Dani."
The moth stepped next to Firebringer; if she allowed, Riley would wrap an arm around her waist. If the elemental needed it, the darkling was there to support them if they needed to lean.
" That sounds noble and all, wanting the best for her. I get that." But how do you know she is truly happy, if you're not in her life?
"What about you, though? You didn't burn a hole through the hedge just to have second best. What about your happiness? You deserve happiness, Dani. I reckon there is a way that you both can be happy."
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Firebringer
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Post by Firebringer on Apr 16, 2021 15:39:51 GMT -8
Dani leans against Riley, accepting the touch. What about her happiness? Dani didn't often think of her own. She had too much to do, other people to worry about. It's been that way her whole life. Everything is about how she can help others, how she can keep an eye out for her sister, keep others happy, keep others safe.
She purses her lips, "I... I just figure it'll be a slow process. I just... I can't tell her can I? If I could, I would. And, moving here hasn't been all bad. I've met some pretty cool people, saved some butts," she shrugs a little bit, but smiles at Riley, "I'm happy, just not in all the ways I want to be. We can't always get what we want. As long as They don't get to her, I just know I've done my job.
"I dunno. It's also just hard to think about me when there's so much out there to fight against, you know? Maybe it's just not in my nature. I'm not someone who chases their desires. I also realize if I get involved in her life fully, she might be in danger too." It was a weird realization, but it was true. Should she be? Thinking about the self always feels wrong.
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Riley Sorsa
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Post by Riley Sorsa on Apr 17, 2021 6:06:15 GMT -8
"It will take time, and it will suck," The moth says, giving Dani a soft squeeze of the shoulder as they held the weight of the elemental. Riley had seen it before; Firebringer put others in front of herself; even the smallest desires took coaxing. The moth wasn't sure if it was wrapped up in Dani's anxiety or if it something else, but it broke their heart hearing her say it out loud.
" I'm glad that it hasn't been all bad," The wisp teases, nudging their hip against Dani. "But you've already done so much for our lot; sometimes you need something just for you."
Dani and Riley shared some anxieties, it seemed, about their sisters. How do you balance life with a mortal after what happened? How can you have a relationship when a fundamental part of yourself you fear to tell them, for yourself and them? Was it selfish to want a sister?
"I know," they took a breath, " I know the fear of keeping her safe. Claire was the one who found me. She knew the other one...was wrong. She tracked me to Vegas and has stayed here for me. And I haven't told her, I can't. I am terrified of putting her in danger. And that secret is always going to be a barrier for us."
They took a breath, their body shuttered slightly with the emotions this brought up.
"Some days, I wish she never did, Just to keep her safe. But, I reckon if she hadn't, I wouldn't be here right now."
Riley glanced over to the Elemental leaning against them. They could feel her heat radiating from her form. It was almost hypnotic; it took the moth a moment to find their footing in the conversation. Riley needed to change tactics. They needed to speak the language of the Iron Spear. As the Twilight dancer, the hair clip that pulled back some of their silver hair seemed to shimmer, and glow, come alive, a reflection of the Bright one's own light.
"I'm sayin' this cause. You up and followed Tania all the way from Baltimore. She is important to you, and you obviously are important to her. Even if she is hurt, you're hurt too. I want to see you happy; I can help, but you're the only one who can claim it at the end of it. Look, I am not saying go contact Tania now. But I think that your relationship with your sister is worth fighting for, and it's going to be a hard fight. It will hurt, and it will take time. But I think it's worth it for you and for her. Ya might not be ready to face her yet, but you should think of yourself from time to time. You fight for us all; you have saved lives." My life, Linden's...
" I guess what I'm sayin' is, ya gotta fight for yourself as well. We all deserve a life worth defending, protecting. You deserve to be happy, Dani."
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Firebringer
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Post by Firebringer on Apr 17, 2021 12:21:23 GMT -8
Something about the way Riley talks about fighting for her desires, her own happiness just felt like it tore into some kind of old, forgotten wound. The Elemental is naturally warm, so warm there is a fear she may heat to be hot enough to cause burns, though that never happens, but right now there is a bit of a blaze to her. It completely rivals against what she's always done. How could she possibly consider going after what she wants?
But then, that's the real question: What does she want?
There is a little glint of something, something that she can't entirely put to words, but she can just kind of see it. She's happy, strong, defiant - a true force of nature that can't be held down. She has goals, not achievements that have led to survival, but real goals. The Hedge is her bitch and she lives on the edge of adventure. Stupid adventure, but adventure. She has a job to protect, but it isn't out of necessity, it is because she wants to. Summer favors her and she feels in control.
I am the master of my fate; I am the captain of my soul.
Invictus is that poem that she always comes back to, reminds her of things she's overcome, reminds her that life doesn't control her, that she controls and steers her own life. Life is too short and dangerous to live in fear.
She purses her lips and recognizes that she has been living in fear. Fear of loss, fear of the Others, fear of every little thing that could go wrong. Avoidance. No, she's a fucking fire. Fire doesn't avoid, it destroys, but it also brings comfort and aids survival. She could protect her sister. Natalia shouldn't have to be alone, shouldn't have to live with the idea that her sister is a deadbeat who left her out to dry. And Fire shouldn't have to live with the consequences her Keeper forced her into. She has the power to fix it. Life is too short to live in fear. Fuck fear.
Danica nods, "I'll consider it," she says, but there is a kind of resolve in there that she didn't have before and it is more than evident.
She takes a moment to look at Riley, just admiring their own inner fire. The Moth isn't just drawn to the flame, the Moth carries their own. She smiles then, that anxiety from before just... gone. "Thanks, Riles."
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Post by Krakenbox on Apr 17, 2021 14:43:45 GMT -8
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